don't act concerned for your selfish reasons.

it annoys me that people seem overly cautious when it comes to me.. i doubt they're like that with any one else. one might say it's nice they care but i think it limits my ability to do a lot of things sometimes. for instance, yesterday fredrick walked me out to the lyft vehicle (because i'm thinking he was afraid it'd be too icy) and the lyft driver assumed i needed help to walk, so he asked fredrick about who was helping me when i got to work yesterday because he couldn't help. needless to say- i got MYSELF outta the lyft vehicle and walked my own ass into the community center yesterday- WITHOUT HELP. i hope the lyft driver felt stupid. it's nice that he cares but EVERYONE assumes that shit so i wouldn't have/get to do things. i hate the dicks who just ACT like they're being "helpful" but are really only doing it so i wouldn't have to do something and they don't have to worry about me because they're SELFISH like my family (except joe) for example. if you're gonna do that shit- just mind your business and don't even pay attention to me anymore. i'm sick of your shit. they're not doing this because they're generous- just for attention- so they look "caring" and "supportive" when they're only doing it because it's convenient/beneficial for them. proof of that is the lack of care i received from my family (EXCEPT JOE, WHO DID VIDEOCALL ME ON FACEBOOK WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL HAVING SURGERY) and how i left amanda and her mom voicemails about being in the hospital and i'm pretty sure i mentioned surgery. people are probably saying, "what about her mom?!" i've tried calling my mom when i fell outta my wheelchair on the ice in burnsville's emergency room and she started crying and getting upset, IF i'm in a good enough condition to call you MYSELF.. don't you assume i'll be alright and it's NOTHING to cry about? she was obviously crying for attention. i hope no one gave her attention seeing as people could care less about me.